Labor Day

It's hard to believe we're just weeks away from Zane's arrival. I didn't do a very good job taking pictures with either pregnancy. Part of me doesn't want to remember how my body changes during this time. But then I think about how this might be my last opportunity to capture this stage of my life, so I might appreciate a picture years down the road. I wanted so badly to take better care to not eat too much, to eat all the right things, and to exercise. Wishful thinking . . . but Vanessa's energy has helped combat the several extra pounds I gained when pregnant with her.

And with all that is going on, I haven't been able to think much about the arrival process. This has prevented a lot of anxiety, and since now we're unsure how this little guy might come into the world, based on his current position, I'm glad I haven't wasted too much thought and worry.

I went into labor with Vanessa but had a c-section because she was breech. If we have to have a c-section with Zane, I wonder if I'll even go into labor or instead make it to whatever scheduled surgery date. I want to avoid a c-section if possible, mainly due to the recovery and the awareness I lack after the surgery. I won't feel guilty or like I'm less of a woman for having to deliver c-section -- I thank the Lord for giving us means to know the best route for the safety of Mama and Baby.

Either way, I can tell my body is preparing for something. I'm sore, uncomfortable and often find it hard to breathe -- all things expected when nearing our possible Labor Day (a day of no relaxation but lots and lots of work!) Zane is really active still. He likes to stretch out to see how far he can take the uterine wall. I can feel when he switches the position of his legs. And every once in a while it feels like he's using his fist to punch -- perhaps mastering survival skills for dealing with his rough-and-tumble sister. Vanessa was pretty calm and content at this point, moving subtly and hiccupping tons. So who knows what we'll get with him.

So to sum it up -- really no anxiety but tons of excitement for our Labor Day!